Those moments between waking and sleeping... they can be dangerous. Like the moments between night and day that we call dusk and dawn, the veil between the physical and spiritual is weaker and more pliant... more susceptible to being torn apart or beaten in.
Last night, as I lay in my bed - on my back - attempting to fall asleep, I felt that veil tear away.
It is terrifying to feel & know that you are awake and safe in your bed, but to be unable to physically move and to see in your mind's eye something else entirely. Your body feels electric at these times, and you are afraid to open your eyes...
Three times, four times, I was given a vision of myself in some life-threatening situation. Nightmares, to be sure, but I was awake as I saw these.
Each time, I roused myself.
The first two times this happened, I tried to tell myself that I was just being silly and I should try to sleep.
The third time, I found the strength to pull the covers over my head, so I could feel little safer (and warmer!), and then I told the - thing - that was doing this to me - to go away, in the name of Jesus Christ, the only Son of the one true, Triune God.
The fourth time, I didn't hesitate to invoke the power of Christ.
And then I was able to turn onto my front and fall asleep. I slept well, and long.
And I woke rested.
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