Who am I? - Part VI

I've been told that I have a gift for interpretation and for storytelling. That's from someone I know in a totally non-religious setting.

I need to go to bed ASAP - taking Michael to his Cursillo meeting in the morning, and I have to pick him up at 8:30. 

But I want to explore this idea, which is most interesting to me because Beth has recently (well, back last month...) written in *her* blog about being a storyteller. She's also all about prayer right now, which is very cool.

Mom is mailing me the tape that has the prophecy on it from 2003. Part of that tape says that I have the tools for communication. That's the bit that really stuck with me. When I get the tape, I'll transcribe my portion here so we can all try to interpret it.

I don't...

I've always been a writer. I've always told stories. There are things that need to be said, and I'm not afraid to say them - in writing, at least.

But interpretation is new for me.

So is this weird state of wisdom and knowledge I'm discovering.

I suppose they've all been there all along - the stories I've written all have a very strong message (not the same message in each story), and I don't think they could have that strong sense of Truth about them if they hadn't been written from a place of Wisdom and Knowledge.

And I have generally been good at "getting a feel for people" - sort of an intuition about a person's state of spirit, state of soul, state of mind. I *feel* it - it's my version of ESP, I guess.

When I first started to understand the messages God was giving me - the ones that He gives for others - I was shocked and astounded that He would grace me with this ability to see Truth for others and then speak it into their lives in a manner that uplifted and encouraged them. I have seen things that were the perfect answer for the person the pictures were for.

And now I'm learning to speak out my knowledge and wisdom. I don't know if it's always a specific God-Truth, but I'm learning (slowly) to tell the difference between God-prompted speech and self-generated speech.

I don't know... I don't know if I use these gifts for exactly God's full purpose yet. I try. It's hard to know for sure.

I'm learning confidence that what I am saying is True and will help others. That's been a difficult one to learn.

I want to tell the right stories - the stories that matter, the stories that will change the world.

I want to interpret people's lives - to remind them that they matter and that they can change the world... to inspire them to do so!

I want to share wisdom - Truth-based wisdom, the kind that can only come from God.

And I want to share my knowledge - Truth-based knowledge that will turn people's lives around.

The other day, on a list, I wrote about my name. "God's Flourishing Graceful Warrior"... about how "I fight for things God places on my heart, but I offer His grace to all. And I grow." (current MSN name)

Here's that excerpt:

First, I belong to God. I am His. I am precious to Him, and He will look after me throughout my life.

Second, I am flourishing. I may not always *feel* flourishing, but I am growing and I am learning (spiritually). It's just slow.

Third, I am graceful. Klutziness of the Year Award notwithstanding. I have grace. It's not physical grace, but spiritual grace, internal grace. Grace under pressure. Grace that was given at the cross is the kind of grace that I have to give to the world.

Finally, I am a warrior. I fight for what I believe in. I defend people, causes, whatever happens to strike me as vital at the time.

Because I am God's warrior, I need to make sure that I am fighting for what He would have me fight for. And He has called me to specific battles in my life. Because I have been given grace, I must remember to offer grace to others. And because I am flourishing, I must take care to tend my spirit - so that I may continue to grow and bear fruit.

I'm tired. And this had a point, but I can't remember what it was. I have to leave for Michael's in five hours. Good night.