Desperation

Poetryprose from this morning's service. It doesn't all make sense, but that's very much okay with me.

Desperately I seek You.
Desperately I need You.
Desperately.

The muddled, frenzied rush
to find that which I have lost...
how does one lose GOD?
Of all the things in a life to lose,
it would seem that GOD is the one
most important.

The air in which we live
and move and breathe and
have our being.

The giver of life, the
sustainer of life.

Without You, I am nothing, I have
nothing, I will be nothing.

The importance of this
relationship cannot be over-stated,
and it is often under-stated.

I don't know how to convey this
importance, desperation, desire,
impatience, frantic search...

Your beauty.
Your wisdom.
Your peace.
Your love.
Your grace.

These things I remember. These
things I seek. These things I
desire.

I long for Your touch, Your voice, Your presence.

Am I willing to wait for the
miracle? Absolutely! I just get
impatient. I want it to happen now.
And I get distracted, I forget that
I ought to be waiting patiently, not
trying to make it happen... not
thinking about something else
entirely.
FOCUS ON GOD... why is
this so difficult? Yes, ADD explains
part of it, but not all of it.
Macro-detail-micro-focus.
I need to micro-focus on this.