Christ beside me, Father guide me, Spirit hide me.

Monday, May 30, 2005

Tehillah II

Tehillah tonight was phenomenal!!!!

God is SOOO amazing!

First of all, I was lucky enough to get one of the last tickets and a place to sit!

Hillsongs United was there, and it was amazing. God is amazing! 

Prose:

A broken record. Trying to take control, yet again. You’d think I’d have learned by now that I can’t control You. Would it help if I said that I’m not trying to control You? – more like myself. Taking charge of my own life. I’m tired of waiting for things to just happen to me. I just want to have enough control that I can let You in… that I can let You be in charge… that I can be open & vulnerable. No walls, okay? Not between us, not between myself and others, not even to guard against that darkness that I know is waiting to swallow me up. I want to feel. I’m tired of being turned off, emotionally and spiritually. Recharge me!

Poetry:

Playing tag in the rain
Muddy footprints
Washed away with the sun
Catch me again

Hide & seek in the orchard
Fallen apples
Kicked away with the sin
Find me again

Home Free
Is here in Your arms,
cuddled close
to a heart that bleeds
of love for me.

Prose:

To be completely, utterly abandoned in You.

Picture:

Jesus, cuddling an infant and blessing a woman cowering at His feet.
Me, kneeling by a pit, reaching out to the lost souls within.
People reaching up, trying to get out of the chasm.

Writing on the picture:

Saving from the pit
Bringing us back from the brink, that we might then go to those left behind

Prose:

To be unafraid of the pit, that deep darkness that is so overwhelming for so many. To stand at the edge of the chasm, to reach in and draw out those who are seeking salvation as desperately as I seek You!

Message Notes:

Psalm 40:1-3 (NIV)

I waited patiently for the Lord;
he turned to me and heard my cry.
He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand.
He put a new song in my mouth,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear
and put their trust in the Lord.

“The songs we are singing are different from love songs about a girl or about a boy.”

Be prepared to cry out to God.
**it’s a passion thing.

Sometimes we don’t feel God because we aren’t really crying out to Him.

God wants you to come to church, & then He wants to walk with you out into the world.

See what breaks the heart of God & let it break your heart.

Not just going to live a consumeristic Christianity, but build a relationship, cry out, wait patiently!

Deuteronomy 6 (Love the Lord your God with all your heart…)

Sometimes what we think is the goal… isn’t actually the goal.

Poetry:

Break my heart
dash it to pieces
put it together
inside out
so the shell
that keeps love out
can no longer hinder me

Picture:

Red heart with lots of little black cracks in it.

Prose:

Like a movie, floating above the Earth, I throw off these dirty clothes and release my broken heart… and it feels… amazing. And then floating on my back, in the ocean, I’m turning somersaults. Amazing God! Glorious God! Gracious God!

Songs to be posted on LiveJournal:

There is Nothing Like
More Than Life
Jesus' Blood
All Day
King of Majesty

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